My doctor was concerned but I wasn't. I had to keep going. Didn't have a clue!
Long story short. I found stillness in meditation and in nature. My boys and I would go camping but I was busy with tents, food, etc. Until one day I watched them just being kids in the water. I noticed the trees, the water and the stillness.
I returned to my childhood which was all about fun, joy and nature. That is where I get my stillness. Nature.
The above photos are two of my favourite places. Lahaina in Maui. It was taken at dusk in front of my sister's house. Three weeks there and I drank in the sun, the trees and sand. It was pure stillness.
The other photo is of Sylvan Lake Alberta. A few years ago a dear friend invited me to stay with her for a week in a relatives condo facing the lake. We both found a supreme sense of quiet, stillness and calm. Many awarness's happened that week. We hardly even ate or got dressed! The memory of that week stays with me.
I am now living in Sylvan Lake and I love it. Even in the winter!
Tell me. Where do you find stillness?